The Gigantes Escapade Day 1

              Hey Everyone! It's been a while right? Well for me the past few weeks had bring a new outlook in life. But, I won't be talking about it now because today, I want to share to all of you a once in a Lifetime experience I had in Gigantes Island in Iloilo City, Philippines.

 

Writing

           The photo above is one of my Journals, Yes you read it write "One of my Journals." I am the type of person who loves to write, writing my thoughts, my feelings and even writing some stories. It had become a big part of my life. Anywhere I go, I always carry a notebook in which I would write my deepest thoughts or a story that I have made. That at times, I feel sad or disoriented if I don't bring a notebook with me >.<

           Yes I really love writing, maybe because it is my way of letting out my pent out anger and feelings I can't express. You see, I'm an introverted and I prepare to be quiet than to start a fight or a quarrel with someone that the only way I could see for me to release my emotions is thru writing.

           So whenever I feel bad or even if I have experience something new or somebody made me smile, you can bet that I will write about it on my trusted Journal :D

           Thanks for listening, till my next entry :D

Kaye 

Childhood Friends

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           I remember when I was a kid, I had an argument with my cousins regarding the moon. Well actually the argument started in a simple sight seeing, While we are playing we noticed that the moon had risen already, even though it's not yet twilight that time. Well, we were talking on how the moon is following us that time, and somehow the little discussion had turned into an argument when me and one of my cousins had become a little hard headed claiming that we are the only one being followed by the moon. And how the story ended, of course it ended in a silly fight and tears since we didn't gave up till the end, lol.  Well, that's just one of the story of my silly childhood days, fighting over silly things and then will be friends once again.

            Years had passed since then, we grow up into who we are. But somewhere over the years, our ways had parted, though not in a bad scenes but more of we have our own circle of friends, getting fewer communications and somewhat not much updated with how are they. Or maybe it's just me, Since I always see myself a bit older than them, that I started to let go of my childhood, preferring the company of books than the Child's game they were playing, Building a wall that have separated me from them.

            I know, somehow through the years, I've been a bit mature, even breaking the wall that separates me with other people. But with them, I can still feel the barrier preventing us being what we are before. I could be sorry or not for whatever actions I have done to them, of creating those walls around myself, but through the struggles I am facing every day, I just suddenly felt that I missed them.

         I know, it is too late to repair the separation we had now, that I might be the reason for those things. But maybe, one day in God's will, we will meet up once again. Talking and acting like how we used to be. All barriers forgotten and starting a new. Since I couldn't change what I have done in the past, the only thing I could do is to start a new and enjoy the silly things we might do once again, just like how we laugh at ourselves every time we will remember the Moon Argument :D
 
                                                                                                                               Kaye!

Fear

 
    Hey guys it's been awhile, how have you been. I've been quite weak this past few days and somewhat I found out the reason.

    Few days ago, I went to the doctor to have my check up since I'm suffering from Abdominal pain. At first, I didn't really mind it, because I was diagnosed with Acute Gastroenteritis when I was a College Sophomore. I just let it thinking it was the same. But due to my limiting absences at work I started thinking that I should visit the doctor to check on me.

    So I went to this clinic, at first the doctor is just asking me things and all and I didn't mind since I think it is still the same problem but when she asked me to have an Ultrasound test and I've read my Initial finding I started getting scared. So a few days after I went back to have my ultrasound.

    I got the result today, the result says that I have a polyps on my Gallbladder though it's benign, I'm still scared. I'm scared for the unknown, for what may happen to my health. My mom told me that I should take care of my body so the Polyps wouldn't cause much trouble in the future. And it is something that I should really do.

   Till next time, and I hope the next time I'll post something it would be a good news :D

Dread

        As I was in the office doing my work on this Monday morning, a dreaded feeling was engulfing my heart. It wasn't something new for me, but it was something I want and I'm dreaming all this time.

        It started almost two weeks ago, when I decided to submit my Application on a job opening. It was something I really wanted, and I'm hoping I'll be able to be given a chance to prove my worth and be hired (hopefully) for the position.

        And now, I'm still waiting for their phone call or any kind of communication to tell me about whether they will give me a chance for the position or when will I have my Exam. It is scary for me, As if the world had become scary and dark for me once again. I really want it, it is something that I really wanted to do. And now I am on some kind of limbo, being pessimistic and depressed once again.

        I really hope that I will be able to hear something from them soon, and till that time, I'll keep my faith and believe that I will be able to get it.

School Reports and Homeworks

 
                 A year pass since I graduated from my Bachelor's Degree in College, and now after days of leave, time and tears that I have sacrifice... I'm back to School.

                 Well, it was a decision made in rush which had brought me back to school. Because when the term started last June on our country, I'm still undecided on which School I'll continue my Masters Degree. But due to a certain reason (Since, we need to take an extra subject, that wasn't offer on my major, because our Law had required it, Our school offers the subject for us) I have applied to my Alma Mater and enter Graduate Schools. For now, I only have one subject and we're special class, but next semester, I'll continue with my Master's degree in Psychology.

                  And now, We'll be having our second meeting soon. And to top it all, Our Group will be reporting about our lesson for the next class. Will be the first group to do so. But still, it had been two weeks since I started reading my report but I haven't started doing it. And now, my old worries and fears are coming back. This is what happen, when you didn't prepare for your report.

                  Anyway, I still have few days, to prepare and study my report. And this time I really need to do it.

                  "It's time to hit the books again" It was my favorite praise before, and now I need to tell myself that it is time to hit and read the books again.

                   It's a Back to School for me once again :D

A Dream

                   I was on my way to City from my Hometown, but due to the lack of sleep last night I had fallen asleep. My sleep wasn't good and had a hard time because of my sleeping position.

                  But, even through my rough sleep, I remember I was dreaming. A dream that I never thought will come to me once again. It was a simple dream, which consist of me wearing my old College Uniform. It was an all white uniform and if I remember correctly I had a white jacket and my hair is clasp in a ponytail.

                 And somehow, It is my dream, my ambition. Something that I have been dreaming of. And because of this dream, the fire burning within had awaken once again :D

                Somehow, I have seen this as my urge to continua and pursue my dreams :D

                And I'm hoping for the best :D



                                                                                                                            Kaye :D