I still have lots more to work on!

          Busy days are starting, but still in adjustment period. Hmm... this is bad, I have to get the hang of this thing as soon as possible.

           I can do this!

A Happy Day :)

Today we celebrate my office mate's birthday.
Well it was a nice experience.

When Something Bad Happens...

   
    This when I arrived at work, our computer won't work. We tried everything to open it up, and it turns out the AVR has a problem.

    So instead of working, we tried to come up with what we will present on our upcoming Christmas party.  We have fun looking for a good song and cute choreography :)

School Hunting

     Ok I'm reading some fics from LJ account, when my mother showed up and told me to seach for a school where I would like to take my Masters degree. Oh my God! I'm so happy.

    Maybe it was trigger by my cousins news yesterday, He's been taking up his Masters without our knowledge. But because of my cousins announcement, my mom had urge me to start looking for a nice school.

    Yes! I'm so happy!
I'll write again soon, but right now I'm off to search for a good school :)

When You're sick... and you have work

      They say it is bad to overwork your brain when you're sick. But I'm stubborn and I never let my mind rest even if I'm not feeling well.

      

A Bad Day...

    Today, I receive a bad news. And it give me another thing to worry about.   It scared the hell out of me. Even if we can say, a small matter, but for me it is something big. Right now I'm freaking out and quite depressed, I don't know what to do.

    I should take this as an obstacle, a test to see how I could cope up with life. I shouldn't lose my hope, I should take this wholeheartedly. I shouldn't be scared, as Robert Kiyosaki says We should not be afraid to try something new and different. We should be open to changes with ourselves. And don't let the world push you around!

One new message!

         Yesterday, I receive a morning greeting from a friend of mine in college. Since I haven't been in touch with them, I mailed her back. For a while we have mailed each other talking about life, how have we been and our plans for the future.

           Even if we only talk for a while, but it give me happiness. Our talk ignites the fire of my desire to pursue my dreams. And I am glad that I have replied to her mail :))

Depression or Sadness

          Being a Psychology Graduate, I tend to use Psychological terms in my daily life. Even if it a simple conversation with friends or an intellectual discussion, Psychological terms have played a big part on it. One of  the terms I use often is depressed, but I sometimes think if I'm giving justice to the term or It is just sadness.

          I have asked my Best friend, on how do we distinguish between depression and sadness. Since we've been using it every time we will fail in an exam or our day didn't turn out from what we have expected. So how can we say that we are depress if the reason is something that had happened on that day. I even asked her if how a normal person without any background with Psychology could tell if s/he feels sadness or is it depression already.

         But  how do we distinguish those two things? Sadness is something that we feel for a day or two because of an unfortunate event or a bad experience, but Depression it occurs for a period of time, it could take months with the feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, worthlessness and even there will be times that you want to die or end up your life. It is a scary experience and it has a deeper reason why do we feel those kind of things.

          I have read a Tumblr post about depression that make me write this. And I think it make sense, since I've been abusing the word depression every time I felt bad or things doesn't go my way. But still I want to help those people, suffering from depression, to help them and tell them that it will be fine and there still people around them that will understand them. Even if I know it will be a hard thing for me, but I want to help them.

1st Day!

     Hey guys, long time no update! This past few days, I've been busy with my requirements for work. At last, after months of waiting, I've got my first job.

     My job is far from what I really wanted, but I think of it as an opportunity, that might help me to attain my dreams! I'll take this as an opportunity to grow to a better me :)

      Till next time! See yah!

Job Hunting

   It's been a while since I've updated this page. Well, for the few days I'm suffering from depression and my mind was in turmoil. Now I think I'm back to normal, and hopefully I won't suffer from depression again.

   I have been thinking on what should I do nowadays, especially that I'm looking for a job right now. To tell you frankly, I want to pursue my degree right away, but to be able to support my Masters and training, I need to support myself. That' why right now I'm looking for a job that even if it is not in line with what I really wanted, but I think it will be helpful for me, since I'm only starting and I will learn a lot of things from it.

   My mind is still in turmoil sometimes, whether if what I'm doing right now is what I really wanted. But I really wanted to start working soon, so I'm hoping that I will be Hired soon :)

   Hoping for the best!

Last day as an OJT...

        For a while now, I had been an intern on my father's agency. I had been encoding and filing for both the IT and Accounting department. And now those days of filing and encoding has ended today.

        A few days ago our HR head had talked to me about my release as an Intern in the company, she said that I should try to apply for job on other companies, because I won't be able to use my degree if I'll be absorb in the company as an encoder. At first, I felt sad about it for I have been at ease with them and leaving it is something I am scared for I do not know what will happen to me. I got depressed and had been lost for a few days.   But after a few days, I have start my job hunting, passing resume's and have done an interview, a new light had shine for me. My perspective had change and job hunting became a challenge that I must conquer.

        Today, I came back to the office to finish my assigned task for the Accounting. And our HR head had talk to me once again. Our talk had made me realize some things. I shouldn't be scared to leave them, because leaving your comfort will teach you new things in life, it will be full of new experience that I could learn from. I am leaving the company to be able to learn things that they can't provide right now.

        I might be leaving my safety zone, but as I walk out of our office, of our building today new opportunities will be opening for me, just don't be scared and soon, I know it will be hard but as one of the employees in our company said, "ganyan talaga sa una, tyaga-tyaga lang yan basta huwag ka lang mawawalan ng pag-asa." It will be a hard path, but I know as long as I believe in myself I will find a job and attained my dreams.

        I had left the office with the yells of good luck from my office mates. And from this day forward another in my life had closed, and I will cherish every memories and lessons I have learned from them. Tomorrow, another chapter will be open and new opportunities will come. Do your best!!

   

A Heart to Heart Talk

     Everyone I'm back in Manila, wow after a few days of being stuck in my hometown, I missed my dormitory room.  Everything is still the same except for, I have talk to one of my dorm mates about my dilemma.

     I could say that she is one of my mentors in life. I have learned a lot of things from her and I could even say that I think of her as my second mother, for she is the one we could turn to in times of problems. Well ever since my dilemma started last week, I have this urge to talk to her and to ask for her guidance. And today I've got the opportunity to talk to her.

    I do not regret that I have shared my problems to her, for it makes me feel relax and to let go of this burden that I have felt for the past few days, she even showed me on how to look on this problem through another persons perspective, in which makes me understand my mother's perspective even for a bit.

    I'm happy that I had met someone like her, who will tell you to make your own decision on which way you want to go and on which path you want to pursue.

    Till next time everyone!

Anxiety... Attack!!!

   Hey guys, I'm back!

  Anybody here who feels scared of certain things because they don't know what should they expect? Well, that's what I feel right now, I'm scared of what will happen tomorrow!!!

   Well everyone please wish me luck and hope for the best!!! I'm still scared...

When things doesn't go your way...

    Sigh:(

    This past few days had been the downfall of my whole month's happiness. A few days ago I received a news  that made me sad, it had bugged for a few days now especially when I need to tell it to my mom. Well as expected she get disappointed. Well she's not the only I got disappointed as well, for months I thought I'll get it but in the end I didn't get it, maybe it is my fault as well. Right now I felt depress by the sudden turn of events, I blamed myself for it, and day by day my depression gets worst. I can't help it, I hate this feeling. I hate that depression slowly eats me up.  I wish this feeling will be gone soon.

    Sorry for the rant guys. I just want to let out my feelings even if it is just half of what I really feel right now.

Start of a New Chapter

    It has been a week and a few days after my Graduation, but I still can't believe That I have finish my studies. And as they say, in every ending there is a new beginning. I may not be the person that I should be right now, Maybe I'm still immature and inexperience, but I am ready to face the challenges that I will face from the coming chapters of my life. I'm ready to learn the lessons that life will teach me, and to take every challenges with open heart and open mind. To learn from the mistakes that I will make and make them as my strength.

    Well Congratulations to all the Graduates of Batch 2012. Let's face the world with our heads up high and ready to take the challenges ahead of us. For this is just the beginning of a bigger battle. A battle, that will make us better.

     Photos with my friends:)

                And my solo photo ;)

          I'll try to update soon :) See you soon guys!

GHIEKAYE     

On my Way Back to Manila

      Hey guys its been a while. Well my life is still the same I think, Having my internship and surfing the net once I returned home.

        Well today something happened to me on my way to Manila from my hometown. While our van is stuck in traffic, there were group of friends who are talking with each other, I think they have been friends for years and they have their little reunion. They have been reminiscing about their past and talking about their life and jobs right now. At one point on our  journey, they played a game and it is a mind game, they had been asking each other what does the simplest everyday word means and other kind of my games. This incident make me think, that sometimes we tend to find a very complicated answer to a problem that may have a simple answer.
     
        Another thing that I had learn from them,as they were playing their mind games, I also think of what could be the answer to their games. and it made me realize that learning doesn't end after you finish your degree or you have graduated from college. Learning is a lifelong process, not all things can be learn inside the classroom. Sometimes the most important lesson in life was taught by experience rather than by the theories. As they say Life is like a big test, there are no time limit on it and sometimes you have to fail first before you learn the lesson.  as I have learn from my Christian Living class in High School a Philosopher had said "the more you learn, the more you understand how little you know." They made me realize that there are a lot of things that I have to learn and I need to understand.

        So what you guys think? well that's it for now. I will try to update soon.

         See you soon guys!!

Graduation Day!

      Today had been a very special day to me, For this is the day we had are Graduation Ceremony. Thank you God for all the blessings that you have given me!

        Well I would like to share my day today for you guys, but since I'm still Elated with to much happiness, I can't write properly, so I will share my Graduation experience to everyone tomorrow!

        Congratulations Batch 2012 Graduates!

The countdown continues...

   Hey guys, I'm back! Well today my countdown for my Graduation day continues. And to celebrate this special day, My school had prepared a Baccalaureate Mass for the Graduating students. And we had been inspired by the presiding priest with his words of wisdom.

    There are few things he said which inspire me, but I will tell you the three things in life to be fulfilled or what do we need to succeed:

1. Something to do
           It feels like that if you know what you want to do, would you like to be a doctor? or you think that your calling is being a Politician or an actress. Then you should pursue your dream!
            My father told me before that I should choose a degree that I want to study, that I should pursue the career that I want because it is hard to study if you don't like what you are doing. I don't know if what I have said is connected with it, but I think that when you found something that you want to do may it be continuing a college degree or becoming a professional basketball player, you had found a purpose for you to continue. It may be something that you wanted or even something that you didn't expected, but once you found it then do your best to attain it.
2. Someone to Love
            Why are you still doing this things? Even if you want to give up, why are you doing it. Is it because you don't want to disappoint your parents? Or because your siblings needs you? Or even because you want to give the best to the person that you love the most. Whether it is from your family or somebody else, but once you found this person you will do everything to succeed. They will become your strength to continue what your doing and be strong against every sufferings and hardships that you will face.
3. Something to Look forward to
              A Coffee commercial in our country once had slogan " Ikaw, para kanino ka bumabangon?" which means "You, For whom do you wake up each morning?". And I think, this slogan means a lot, if we have something to look forward to, it will be easier for us to wake up each morning and face the world ahead of us. It isn't just about someone, it can also be something that we wanted to have. If there is something or someone we want to have, are drive to achieve it will be bigger it will become one of our purpose to continue with our life.

     What do you think guys? Is it right or wrong? Comments are appreciated and I hope you will share what your own meaning of those three keys to success.

      Well anyway, today I have been emotional. This afternoon I have done something that I haven't for a while now, and it is walking around our College department. Since I was in school, I thought that I should enjoy my remaining days at my school as a student and since it had been a long time since I went to our Department's floor, I grab the opportunity to walk around the school. Today there are fewer students at school since its Summer and only few students have Summer classes, I have enjoyed walking around the school without its usual noise and shouts. Walking around the corridors that I have walk for the past 4 years, makes me remember all my experiences from the school. I also grab this opportunity to visit the places that I haven't visit since I have been on the school. Walking around the school, makes me realize that maybe it will be the last time that I will walk around it as a student, that maybe the next time I will walk through the school not as a student but as an Alumna.. This thought makes me tearful, savoring the last few days of my life as a student. I am thankful that I have been a student of my Alma Mater, It had shaped me into what I am now.

      Well this had been a very long post. But I hope I will be able to update tomorrow. Well see you again soon guys! Take care!

Trying to stay calm... But I'm so excited!

    Hey guys, i'm back! Well I'm trying to calm myself from the excitement of  a special day, but I can't help it but to feel much euphoria.
    Right now, I ask for a week leave from my Internship to fully focus on my requirements and documents that are still need to be submitted. But at the moment, I'm here at my Dormitory room, lazying around and staying in front of my computer since I've woke up this morning. Well I thought I would be really busy this week, but I've got my tickets yesterday and the schedule of my graduation gown will be tomorrow and graduation practice on Thursday. So today, my schedule is to look for a dress that I will wear for my graduation. Well, I'd better get ready and start to look for a dress.

     I'll be back soon! See you!!!

A Week to go...

         Hey guys, It's been a while since my last update. I've been busy this past few weeks. Anyway, I am excited for this coming week! For my graduation is coming!!! I'm so excited and I can't wait for this special day!

         Just a few more days and my student life will be over. Well, not entirely since I'm planning to pursue my masters degree in Psychology. But, still my College life will be over soon, and for this past months I felt really happy, I was overwhelmed because I can't believe that my four years of hardship to earned this degree and diploma is ending, that my dreams are turning into reality. Well, this isn't the end, it is just the beginning of a bigger battle, of more obstacles needed to surpassed. It is just the beginning of my life as a part of the society, earning money and learning lessons given not by a professor but taught by life itself.

         A few more days, before my graduation, and I will cherish every memories that I have for the past years. Will I cry on this special day?

         Well till next time guys! God Bless and Good day to all of you! I will update soon, Till next time guys. See you soon!

Long time no update!

      Hey guys, its been a while since I updated my blog. sorry about that I had been quite busy and depress this past few weeks. But maybe one of this days, I might tell you about my experience on my Internship in three settings, Clinical, School and Industrial setting. I hope it won't be a long one. And also I might tell you about my thoughts about my incoming graduation. Hopefully! this coming May I'll be marching with my fellow classmates on our graduation (and I think I will!). This coming weeks will be busy with our clearance and completion of our other requirements regarding our graduation. Wish me luck guys!

      Anyway I'm chatting with my father through Facebook and his asking me about my graduation. He told me that whatever time my graduation is ( because we have two batch of ceremony due to our large population), I should attend it! He also told me that my late grandfather will be happy if I attend my graduation, and I don't have any plans of not attending it! It is a once in a lifetime experience, My College Graduation!

      Okay, this is it for today! till next time everyone see you soon!

The Closing of a Beautiful Chapter

              Today another chapter of my Practicum days had ended. We had to say goodbye, to all the Guidance counselors who had shared their knowledge and expertise in Guidance and Counseling, to the teachers and stuff who had guided and helped us and to the kids who have shared their stories to us and for all the happy that we had shared. I would like to say thank you for all the things that you taught and shared, and thank you for the a month full of happy memories and knowledge gained.

              I have finished my Practicum last Wednesday. Me and my classmate Elai had completed our 100 hours of training on that day, with just our requirements to be submitted to the head of counselors. Since that day, I have been having mixed emotions. Happiness that my 100 hours in Guidance had been finished and sadness for I will have to leave the school with just my memories and experience from the school to keep. On that day as well, we had to surrender our practicum Identification card, and as we unhook the ID, I was in tears thinking that it was really the end of a nice chapter. But then our Practicum head told us that we had to return back on Friday for we have to attend an activity they had prepared, and we had to submit all our requirements on that day as well.
               Well when I returned today at the school, the counselor's had given us a farewell party. It has been a tradition for them to give a party for all the Practicumer who have finished their training under their care. The party had been a bonding moments for all of us, sharing our thought and the things we had learned from everyone. The moment of happiness had become a crying sessions as we shed tears of joy while relating all the experiences and knowledge we had learned from them.
                I'm happy that I had joined my classmates on training under he school setting. I had learned a lot from them about my future career as well as life. the experiences that I had with them had let me learned new things, as our Practicum Head said, "In everything that you had done in here from the counseling up to the times that I will ask you to go down the gym to join the Flag ceremony is part of your training." Unknowingly, a lot of things had changed within us from our experiences there. And I hope this experiences will help me become more mature and confident.
               Well Thanks for all the knowledge that we had learned and as they say this things will be helpful for us as we step into the Corporate world, it is time for us to try handling the HR department, after finishing both the Clinical and School settings. I will missed the bonding moments that I had with my classmates, learning o open up to them and finding new friends from the people I thought will always just be an acquaintance or a classmates. I will cherished all the silly things and hearty talks that I had shared with you during our stay in the school.
               Everyone! Lets do our Best so that we will graduate together this May! Kaya natin to!
               

Happy Valentines!

         Its been ages since I made my last update. But due to certain events happening to me, I didn't have the time to update. Since it's Valentines day tomorrow, I just want to greet everyone a Happy Valentines! I hope you enjoy the day with your love ones. Now, I need to finish my requirements due this week! I'll be back again soon.
  See you!

Fandom Thoughts

    Well it's 2012, and my vacation will end soon. It has been a nice 2 weeks for me, doing what I want, relaxing and having fun at home.
 
     But before my vacation ends, I want to share my thoughts about my favorite idol group. I'm a big fan of Hey Say JUMP, a J pop group under Johnny's entertainment. It was almost a year ago when I first met them and become their fan. 2011 were full of ups and down for them, and I have watch how they take everything and continue with their activities. As 2012 starts, I'm hoping for a better year for them.

     Well, It's just the 2nd day of the year, and I just find out 3 great news: 1.) Yabu Kota has been accepted at Waseda University, 2.) JUMP will release a new song called "Super Delicate" for Yamada and Yuto's drama, 3rd.)  Hey Say JUMP will have their first Asian Tour. Congratulations to Hey Say JUMP! But I was sad that my country the Philippines won't be part of their tour. So sad :(

     Well, It's just the start. Maybe on their next tour they include more countries on their tour, including the Philippines. Well a fangirl can always dream, right? Congratulation once again to Hey Say JUMP!

Goodbye 2011, Hello 2012

         In a few hours time, the Philippines will be saying goodbye to 2011 and will welcome 2012. And before everything else I want to greet everyone a Happy New Year! Lets welcome this coming year with an open heart and mind and forget all the bad experiences we had this 2011.
         Happy New Year everyone! Wishing you all peace, happiness and prosperity this 2012.