Crossroads

                  Hey guys! I'm sorry for being absent for a long time. Its been the same thing for me, depressing and unworthily. That somehow, I lost my interest to blog. Ok let me tell you the reason why I started this blog of mine.

                    Honestly, I created this blog to share my thoughts on you guys. To tell you, I'm not the type of person who loves crowd and attention. I'm the exact opposite, I prefer to be alone because being in a crowd exhaust me. I'm not fond of talking to people since I'm not a smooth talker and I think I bore people with my stories. I just want to be heard and to share the things I've learned from life, the lessons I've learned from my mistakes and my journey to my dreams. But somehow, things didn't work the way I have planned it. If you will looked back on my post this past few months, many things had changed. From the lively full of life and hope post that I had post before, it turned into something depressive and suicidal. To tell you, I was asking myself what had happened to me? Where's the old me? the one who's full of hope and excited for the things I will learn as I embark on another chapter of my life. WHy did I become like this? Why did I sound suicidal? The answer, I'm not happy. There will be times that I will asked myself if I am doing the right thing. I know this isn't what I want and I'm scared to do what I want because of what will the others say.

                  BUT! with the things I'm experiencing right now, I don't want to keep doing this thing if I'm half-hearted and I'm not happy. I want to pursue my dreams and I know it is not what I'm doing right now. I know there are things that I have to accomplished first before I pursue my dreams, but I know I'm nearing my crossroads.

                  God had shown me the way back to my dreams and what I need to do is to not hesitate and grabbed it. I know this way will be hard as well, it might be even harder but I just thought that if I will be upset and depressed of something, I think it would be better if I'm doing something I love and not something I'm not happy about. I want to feel the fulfillment I once felt when I'm doing something I really want.

                 After all once destiny is made up of the choices we created, I know I can make a difference and I'll attain my dreams :)

 That's all for now :)
 See you soon guys :)

                                                                                                                            Giekaye