Fear

 
    Hey guys it's been awhile, how have you been. I've been quite weak this past few days and somewhat I found out the reason.

    Few days ago, I went to the doctor to have my check up since I'm suffering from Abdominal pain. At first, I didn't really mind it, because I was diagnosed with Acute Gastroenteritis when I was a College Sophomore. I just let it thinking it was the same. But due to my limiting absences at work I started thinking that I should visit the doctor to check on me.

    So I went to this clinic, at first the doctor is just asking me things and all and I didn't mind since I think it is still the same problem but when she asked me to have an Ultrasound test and I've read my Initial finding I started getting scared. So a few days after I went back to have my ultrasound.

    I got the result today, the result says that I have a polyps on my Gallbladder though it's benign, I'm still scared. I'm scared for the unknown, for what may happen to my health. My mom told me that I should take care of my body so the Polyps wouldn't cause much trouble in the future. And it is something that I should really do.

   Till next time, and I hope the next time I'll post something it would be a good news :D

Dread

        As I was in the office doing my work on this Monday morning, a dreaded feeling was engulfing my heart. It wasn't something new for me, but it was something I want and I'm dreaming all this time.

        It started almost two weeks ago, when I decided to submit my Application on a job opening. It was something I really wanted, and I'm hoping I'll be able to be given a chance to prove my worth and be hired (hopefully) for the position.

        And now, I'm still waiting for their phone call or any kind of communication to tell me about whether they will give me a chance for the position or when will I have my Exam. It is scary for me, As if the world had become scary and dark for me once again. I really want it, it is something that I really wanted to do. And now I am on some kind of limbo, being pessimistic and depressed once again.

        I really hope that I will be able to hear something from them soon, and till that time, I'll keep my faith and believe that I will be able to get it.