Last day as an OJT...

        For a while now, I had been an intern on my father's agency. I had been encoding and filing for both the IT and Accounting department. And now those days of filing and encoding has ended today.

        A few days ago our HR head had talked to me about my release as an Intern in the company, she said that I should try to apply for job on other companies, because I won't be able to use my degree if I'll be absorb in the company as an encoder. At first, I felt sad about it for I have been at ease with them and leaving it is something I am scared for I do not know what will happen to me. I got depressed and had been lost for a few days.   But after a few days, I have start my job hunting, passing resume's and have done an interview, a new light had shine for me. My perspective had change and job hunting became a challenge that I must conquer.

        Today, I came back to the office to finish my assigned task for the Accounting. And our HR head had talk to me once again. Our talk had made me realize some things. I shouldn't be scared to leave them, because leaving your comfort will teach you new things in life, it will be full of new experience that I could learn from. I am leaving the company to be able to learn things that they can't provide right now.

        I might be leaving my safety zone, but as I walk out of our office, of our building today new opportunities will be opening for me, just don't be scared and soon, I know it will be hard but as one of the employees in our company said, "ganyan talaga sa una, tyaga-tyaga lang yan basta huwag ka lang mawawalan ng pag-asa." It will be a hard path, but I know as long as I believe in myself I will find a job and attained my dreams.

        I had left the office with the yells of good luck from my office mates. And from this day forward another in my life had closed, and I will cherish every memories and lessons I have learned from them. Tomorrow, another chapter will be open and new opportunities will come. Do your best!!

   

A Heart to Heart Talk

     Everyone I'm back in Manila, wow after a few days of being stuck in my hometown, I missed my dormitory room.  Everything is still the same except for, I have talk to one of my dorm mates about my dilemma.

     I could say that she is one of my mentors in life. I have learned a lot of things from her and I could even say that I think of her as my second mother, for she is the one we could turn to in times of problems. Well ever since my dilemma started last week, I have this urge to talk to her and to ask for her guidance. And today I've got the opportunity to talk to her.

    I do not regret that I have shared my problems to her, for it makes me feel relax and to let go of this burden that I have felt for the past few days, she even showed me on how to look on this problem through another persons perspective, in which makes me understand my mother's perspective even for a bit.

    I'm happy that I had met someone like her, who will tell you to make your own decision on which way you want to go and on which path you want to pursue.

    Till next time everyone!

Anxiety... Attack!!!

   Hey guys, I'm back!

  Anybody here who feels scared of certain things because they don't know what should they expect? Well, that's what I feel right now, I'm scared of what will happen tomorrow!!!

   Well everyone please wish me luck and hope for the best!!! I'm still scared...

When things doesn't go your way...

    Sigh:(

    This past few days had been the downfall of my whole month's happiness. A few days ago I received a news  that made me sad, it had bugged for a few days now especially when I need to tell it to my mom. Well as expected she get disappointed. Well she's not the only I got disappointed as well, for months I thought I'll get it but in the end I didn't get it, maybe it is my fault as well. Right now I felt depress by the sudden turn of events, I blamed myself for it, and day by day my depression gets worst. I can't help it, I hate this feeling. I hate that depression slowly eats me up.  I wish this feeling will be gone soon.

    Sorry for the rant guys. I just want to let out my feelings even if it is just half of what I really feel right now.