I Want to Give Up

It's been eons since my last post here. But still my feelings never change or to tell you frankly, It become worst. Supposedly this blog is where I want to share my everyday learning. But when I looked back on my previous post, from my happy, full of life post it became depressive and suicidal post. What happened to me? Maybe those things are my fault, but I don't know what to do anymore. Every time I will do something, I'll always felt that it's useless and full of mistakes. Sometimes, I can't help but to self-pity. Before, I think I could do this, that I'll be able to surpass this. Now I'm really losing hope, I felt like I'm getting more and more lost :(